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I hate silence

I hate silence

Silence
I hate it
It is deafening

To confront
Selves normally hidden
Now disclosed by the
Absence of noise

Ego dreams haunt my waking
Don’t leave me with me
I would rather have sounds
Of someone else 

I drown in them
The rising tide creeps upward
Clinging to my throat
And I can’t breathe

Carnal ruminations 
Hide deeper longing
And this salacious hunger
Swallows my imagination

When outside volume turns down
The inside volume blasts
Thwarted by thoughts
Murdered by musings

Rage fantasies hem me in
Circling like soldiers
Prison guards approach
Incarceration's thunder booms

Silence
I hate it
It is deafening

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  1. UnknownSeptember 15, 2018 at 5:20 PM

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